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allmiracles) wrote2012-03-03 07:41 pm
allmiracles) wrote2012-03-03 07:41 pm
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no. 05 :
[after a brief run-in with Peter, she heads out of the workshop and across Camp. it's dark enough that her visibility is hindered, and the threat of the looming zombies is enough that she keeps her wand out. just in case.
she stops outside the hotel and heads to the door without hesitation.]
she stops outside the hotel and heads to the door without hesitation.]
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Not tonight, Vanille.
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It's okay. I know it's different ... but it's okay.
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I'm not what you want. Not tonight. I'll stay, but ...
[he says, wryly]
I think the person you're looking for is thirteen years in the past.
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The person I'm look for is right here.
You're Hope no matter how old you are. Even if you leave and come back again. You'll always be Hope to me. That's what I want.
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No, I'm not finished yet. Both you and Lightning ... you look at me and you see failure. A failure to not be there. But ... I like who I've become. I now have the power to protect everyone, and that was what I wanted. When I was a l'Cie I wanted to protect you - all of you - and I didn't think I had the power to do that. Alexander showed me that wasn't true, that I can protect and support you. What I've become since then is a continuation of that. I wanted to protect humanity and I found my way to do that. This is not a failure. You and Light, you haven't failed. This is what I want to be.
And I'm keeping you up. I just ... want you to know that the person I am now is a person who lives their life without regret.
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You're making it complicated. That's not what I think at all.
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It used to be like this, remember?
[shakes her head and leans back, sitting on her legs]
But it's not that anymore.
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[she shifts, moving in closer until they're face to face, and then leans down a little until her head is just beneath his chin]
Sometimes, it's hard to remember that things like this aren't so easy to understand.
[sits back again, smiling a little]
I guess, what I'm saying ...
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Is that I don't ... want to be lonely. I trust you with that, because ... this is the person you are.
I have to let you do it, too.
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[putting her hands in her lap, looking a little uncomfortable]
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You'll tell me, right? When you feel certain ways... I want to know.
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Oh. Yes. I promise.
[look, one of us had dozed off for a second.]
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You're sure?
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[crawls over behind him, looking at his face from an awkward angle]
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Nah, just passed out.]
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[breathes out, quietly. leans in a little, her expression melting]
I was telling the truth, all right? I do like the person that you've become. You didn't fail at all.
...Sometimes, I think about how it would've been easier for you if you hadn't met me. Then I think of those happy times we had together. Would you be the same? Would you be saving the world now? ...Or would you have a normal life and a family? Sometimes you seem so lonely and far away, even to me...
But you found purpose, didn't you? That makes me happy. That's all it takes, okay?
...
[shifts slowly, so she doesn't disturb him, curling up against his back.]
Just rest for a while.