illyria is special snowflake. she kind of gets the castiel/machine treatment in the way that she is obviously not human but gets treated like one. vanille feels that there's a lot about emotions and a lot about humanity in general that she doesn't understand, but there's also a level where she's fascinated with it. and she wants to give back to illyria in the way illyria gives to her, even if she might not know it.

she feels very safe with her. there's no talk of what happened on her world, and nothing that she really feels the need to express, so illyria is really kind of a safe place to be. see really seeks out that kind of female attention, because in a way, it's really what makes her comfortable. she really adores her in the respect that she could really get flown into a seriously dangerous situation with her and still feel safe. like she lets herself be vulnerable when she hugs her! she lets her do things for her that she probably wouldn't normally let people do for her! IN SHORT SHE IS A BADASS LADY WHO GIVES HER A VERY INTERESTING KIND OF EMOTIONAL SUPPORT BY JUST BEING … WHO SHE IS. i wish i had a more graceful way of saying that, but even her mannerisms and her tone of voice are probably comforting on some level.

there's more. more later. sleep now.