HAHA I AM GOING TO WRITE THIS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IT'S FRESH ON MY MIND. when we were doing our first thread i got to thinking.
I think Raines was searching—searching for a way to make us understand. To understand the frustration of being a l'Cie—a l'Cie bound to a Focus. And maybe … what it meant to be human.
quite honestly, i don't think she ever really blamed him for what he did, or um, how he tried to kill them. there's a point where she believes that what he's trying to do is grasp feebly at his humanity even though he's a l'cie, and give them mercy. so when he suddenly showed up, the first thing she kind of wanted to do was tell him how his dream was realized, even though he wasn't the one who could see it through anymore. so she sort of fumbled with the "fang and i saved cocoon and i'm so glad that i could tell you that!!" because she feels in a way, that it's a way for her to make things right and put some of his pain at ease.
vanille likes to evade her own problems by diving into other people's. she gives pieces of information out, depending on the person, and is very careful not to give too much, or the wrong kind, depending on who they are. so there are people in camp who really only have bits and pieces of how she feels, as well as what happened in the world that she comes from.
SHE STILL KIND OF HAS THAT WITH CID RAINES, except that she feels like she almost owes him. so when he asks for something, or sometimes, even when he doesn't, she forces herself to tell him things openly. liiike that time where she was very obviously uncomfortable talking about oerba and gran pulse, and he changed the subject, and she was like "no, i think you need to hear this, anyway."
so a lot of her efforts with him are trying to integrate him and explain and kind of... relax that pain? she gets really happy when they do inane things like search for tonberries or she uses his cape or whatever. because as unimportant as they seem, there's that satisfaction that he's having fun with his life really sucked on cocoon.
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quite honestly, i don't think she ever really blamed him for what he did, or um, how he tried to kill them. there's a point where she believes that what he's trying to do is grasp feebly at his humanity even though he's a l'cie, and give them mercy. so when he suddenly showed up, the first thing she kind of wanted to do was tell him how his dream was realized, even though he wasn't the one who could see it through anymore. so she sort of fumbled with the "fang and i saved cocoon and i'm so glad that i could tell you that!!" because she feels in a way, that it's a way for her to make things right and put some of his pain at ease.
vanille likes to evade her own problems by diving into other people's. she gives pieces of information out, depending on the person, and is very careful not to give too much, or the wrong kind, depending on who they are. so there are people in camp who really only have bits and pieces of how she feels, as well as what happened in the world that she comes from.
SHE STILL KIND OF HAS THAT WITH CID RAINES, except that she feels like she almost owes him. so when he asks for something, or sometimes, even when he doesn't, she forces herself to tell him things openly. liiike that time where she was very obviously uncomfortable talking about oerba and gran pulse, and he changed the subject, and she was like "no, i think you need to hear this, anyway."
so a lot of her efforts with him are trying to integrate him and explain and kind of... relax that pain? she gets really happy when they do inane things like search for tonberries or she uses his cape or whatever. because as unimportant as they seem, there's that satisfaction that he's having fun with his life really sucked on cocoon.
the end.
now it's your turn.